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Anonymous stand still
my life came to a stand still when I was admitted to hospital with stab wounds, I arrived at the hospital by ambulance after coming from another who recognized I needed surgery and they didn't have the recourses to do it there. I had a row with my boyfriend at the time and was going home to my parents with the baby we recently had together, my first baby girl. Only realizing why my mother was standing in front of me with a pries tBefore I went to theatre, I’ll never forget as long as I live and breathe I asked how was my daughter was, after hours before being told by officers She was ok, thought nothing of my mother being there especially with a priest. Then she told me HE killed my angel, my beautiful little girl, my first-born baby, my life. I just wanted to die my existence to me was over, everything to me worth living for was gone, me fighting for life with stab wounds to the neck and back, and my GORGEOUS princess cold in her Moses basket dead after her own flesh and blood father knifed her six times into the chest. it was something 10 years later I still can't come to terms with. I still to this day can't look at the world like used to, I never done counseling, or groups, I’ve been offered but declined every time, just too painful to repeat again I suppose, just remembering the night my, my family's life completely changed and has so for the rest of our natural born days, I still wake up in sweats feeling the blade go in, the warm blood stream down my neck, the sudden reality I’m gonna die, THAT'S just me. Imagine the terror and pain a 14-week-old baby felt, thinking her daddy was going to comfort her and all she got was a blade. She was due to be christened the following week. I still have her silver me and her closest bought (not him) I LOVE MY DAUGHTER AND ALWAYS WILL, she to me will always live on as long as I’m alive to keep her memory alive, she is greatly missed by me and who loved her, it's 10 years now and the pain and sorrow is as raw as the day we lost her, I really, really really miss, love and long to be with her all the days were apart.
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