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Joe Mack Is Alive Today In Heaven!Praise God!! Oct. 9, 2008“I am a smile. A big huge smile. I am laughter. I am joy. I am bursting at the seams with happiness. It is my natural instinct to walk around and wonder what I can do for someone that day to make them smile” written by Joe Mack Crow. My son Joe Mack Crow was killed in a car crash on June 17, 2007. He was 30 years old. He was never married. He had no children. But he had a family who loved him and more friends than I can count. He was blest while on this earth with endearing you to him forever once you met him. The passage above was on my son’s program at his funeral. It was taken from some of his writings. It was so appropriate but yet so hard for him to do. That was his natural instinct to make you happy, but life would not let him make himself or anyone else happy. He fought demons in his mind for a long time, but God finally on Father’s day, June 17, 2007 put the demons down and took Joe Mack to a promised home. My son struggled with alcoholism and depression for along time. We went through many trying events. The devil fought me on every corner. I prayed so hard for my son to be taken care of and peace to brought to his mind. In the spring of 2006 my son had been sober for 441 days. Of course life through him another curve and he fell down. He stood up and said I just have to start over. This went on for a while, he’d fall down, get up and fall down again. Joe Mack had many long talks with me about how he felt and what he wanted out of life. He could not understand what came so easy for others was so hard for him. He told me once that all he wanted was a wife, a home and a family. During this talk I told him we were not going to count his sober days any more, we were going to be thankful for the days he was alive. So in the spring of 2006 instead of writing each day the number of days sober; I wrote Joe Mack is alive today!! I wrote this from April of 2006 till June 16 of 2007; I wrote this sentence everyday, thanking God Joe Mack was alive. During this time also I had been praying because his request seemed so simple, just a wife, home and family. How hard could that be for God to fulfill? God spoke to me one day as I was driving, “I have a house for Joe Mack”. I went straight home and wrote that down. I began to praise God for my prayer was going to be answered. A day or so later God spoke to me again, “You did not understand me, I have a house that will be a home for Joe Mack”. Again I went straight home and wrote these things down. And again I added to my writings; from April of 2006 to June 16 of 2007, “God has a house that will be a home for Joe Mack, help Joe Mack except God’s plans and me20also.” I was getting up the morning of June 17 2007, going down the hall to get my journals to do my daily readings and writings when the police officer came to the door to say Joe Mack had been killed. God fulfilled his promise. He gave Joe Mack a home. It was not the home I expected, but his home with the Lord is better than any home on this earth. God fulfils our prayers. In His on good time and in His on way the Lord fulfils what he says. We are not always ready for that answer, but we must not question it either. But as a parent we are human, and I ask God everyday surely there was a way he could have had a home here on earth with me, but again on Aug. 17, 2007, God spoke and he said simply “I gave him a home”. Now who am I to ask anymore from God? So now since that day in August I write “Joe Mack is alive today in Heaven”. Then I write God says, “I gave him a home”. Now I praise God everyday for Joe Mack’s home. I don’t have to worry anymore about my son. He is safe and he is at home. For all of you who have lost loved ones my prayers are with you. I wish no parent ever had to go through this feeling of loss. But I am not the first nor will I be the last parent to feel such sorrow. May God lead you through all the valleys of darkness until you are ready to climb out of the darkness into the Light. God bless you. Dana Lynn Crow
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